The Lateness of the Hour

For as long as I can remember, I've always been a night owl. There's something about the absolute serenity when the rest of the human race has turned in for the night that brings me peace. I even have a "magical period", which in between 11pm and 3am. This is when a day is truly ending and the world is entering a period of slumber. This is also when I, if the opportunity is there any way, step outside and wander.

For the record, I don't meditate in the traditional sense. I can't sit still long enough and I can't shut my brain off. Meditation, for me, is in the form of walking. At most, I pick a direction and see where it takes me; but most of the time, I wander off and just let my feet take over while my brain does its best to sort itself out. I talk to myself, mostly, or I talk to God about the big stuff that's going on in my life or rattling around in my brain. Or I'll just stroll and listen to the symphony of the night. Sometimes, actually most of the time, this is when I am most at peace with everything. Stress melts away during my "magic period" and I am most able to...just be.

As I am typing this, it is 1:23 in the morning. I got off work an hour and a half ago and I'm just soaking in the silence before both my brain and body decide it's time to rest. I felt the nudge to blog, so I am. I might step back outside and wander a bit. Not sure. That's the other beauty about this time. Life is completely free and completely open to possibility. I don't have to go anywhere or do anything. Nothing is expected of me and my slate (during this time period each night) is entirely clean. Also, might I add, this is when I do a good chunk of my blogging. It's when the words flow best for me.

Now, this blog post might sound entirely arbitrary. It is. I felt the prompt to write, so I am. I'm hoping there's big news on the horizon, but everything, right now at least, is in a bit of a holding pattern. I also realized something tonight: I'm at peace with how things are. It's not good, it's not bad, it's just...life. I honestly don't have much control over the current state of things; but what I do have control over, I have maximized to the best of my ability.

Speaking of which, I think that's how I'll end this post. I'm a bit done typing at the moment (no offense to you, dear reader) and I really don't have much more to say on anything until the pieces finally fall into place. Rest assured, though. No matter what happens, I'm not going anywhere.

Knock on wood.