Monday, February 29, 2016

The Fables We Live

"A story has no beginning or end; arbitrarily one chooses that moment of experience from which to look back or from which to look ahead." - Graham Greene (The End of the Affair, 1951)

We humans like to imagine that our lives are this one linear path; when the truth of the matter is that the points between life and death are hardly that. The grand selection of roads that we travel on during the journey from crib to coffin is staggering if you stop and think about it. Even the most boring individual has loved, laughed and mourned multiple times in their lives. Children have begat from two strangers who just so happen to be in the throws of passion. A slight mistake from one individual can lead to the demise of another. Relationships and careers begin and end and begin once again numerous times. Random excursions become daily routines and more random excursions occur to break the monotony of daily existence. 

Not all the roads we travel are highways and dead ends. Most of life lies somewhere in-between. 

I started this blog on a whim and its continued success and existence surprises even me. It helps that I have no agenda for it beyond just telling the story of my life as it occurs. I make no illusion of perfection and I try and be as honest about my shortcomings as I can be. I disclose much; but also refrain when the need arises. You could easily make the case that I write about everything and nothing at the same time - and be correct in doing so. And the full reason I continue on is simple: to tell my story.

You see, we as a species need stories just as much as we need food, water, and air. Whether it's in the form of a song, a play, a novel, or a painting; we need an escape from our realities and the ability to dive into others. In this modern age, we have the luxury of ebooks, blogs and vlogs, podcasts, and Netflix; but they all fulfill the same need.  it's fact or fiction matters not. Honestly, not even the quality of it matters (our "guilty pleasures"). But, nevertheless, as much as we need the stories that are told, we need those who tell them. I was born a storyteller and I honestly don't feel fulfilled unless I am telling one. My existence is but one speck of sand in a universe of beaches, but the fact that it's narrated draws others to it. And so, my story continues.

The point I'm trying to get at is that you don't have to be famous or a historical figure to have your story told. I have encouraged friends, family, and even strangers to start blogging. We all have facets of our existences that are fascinating to someone else. Lessons we have learned (or should) and mistakes that we overcome that someone else needs in their life. Storytelling is an integral part of the building of relationships and communities. And, let's be honest: it's what we need to keep us sane in this utterly chaotic world that we live in. And I can personally attest to how completely cathartic it is. To purge what is on my heart and dwelling in my mind is freeing - to say the very least. It keeps the demons at bay, helps me work out problems that seem too insurmountable, and even allow me to see the opportunities that are staring me in the face. 

So, long story short, we all have a story to tell. We all have lives that matter to others - even to individuals whom we may never meet. But, unless you tell your story, it remains with you until the very end. Because, even the most skilled biographer cannot truly tell your story for you.

Friday, February 19, 2016

The Only Thing That Changed Was Everything

So, first off, bear with me. I've been awake since five in the morning and have barely had a nap. So I'm going to make this as coherent as humanly possible. Bear with me. Also factor in that it's been a bit of a long week. I'll be going into further detail in this post.

In short, my life is once again in transition. When is it not is the real question. But, this particular transition is a solid good one. A future building (I hope) one. You see, I have a new career.

Now, before you roll your eyes and say "here we go again"; this one is truly a solid one. Why, you may ask yourself? Because it's not sales. Plain and simple. I have accepted a position as a Inventory Control Officer at a local hardware store. A Monday through Friday position. Early morning into early afternoon. Full time. Zero commute (which, if you recall, has been a serious issue).

Which lead me to put in my notice at Barnes and Noble. I'm not going to lie - it was much harder than I originally anticipated. Despite the struggles with the schedule, commute, and lack of hours and pay, I made fast friends there and loved being back in the literary environment. That doesn't mean I won't ever go back (in fact, I gave them a three week notice, not the standard two), it just means I will be a common consumer when I do.

Which also means that for the next few weeks I'll be juggling two jobs and working multi-week shifts. It may sound odd, but I kinda miss doing that. Sometimes I wonder if it's the insane work schedule that keeps me sane.

So, what does this mean for you, dear reader? Plenty, actually. Meaning, I'm going to start blogging regularly again. And writing other things. And getting published...

You see, one of my first goals of this year is to turn my blog posts into a book. A modern day memoir, if you will. Not just this blog, but also my first one, a few chosen from LinkedIn; and even some poetry that I posted on Facebook, once upon a time. The title is going to be "A Life Less Ordinary" (which, yes, is one of my posts on here - and I will include it). There will be a plethora of material, so, deciding what material is harder than expected (I've already begun the process). I have already decided to self publish (for now) and offer it as both a digital copy and a physical copy. Give the reader a choice as to the format they desire.

Speaking of writing, oh yes, there will be plenty of that happening.  I still have two NaNoWriMo projects I plan on finishing and starting the process of publishing. Plus, there's NaNoWriMo this coming November, as well. I'm using that to write the first book in my fantasy series. Seven books will be in there. And, most importantly, I still have the goal of writing the next Great American Novel. Especially since Harper Lee (To Kill A Mockingbird) passed today. No clue what that plot will be.

In summary, the only thing that has changed is everything. And, from what I can tell, it's all for the better. As my roommate summarized last night, this year will prove to be an epic one for me. But, it's in my hands to prove that to be true.

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

The Check Engine Light

About 48 or so hours ago, I was in pretty rough shape. A bug (I'm unsure if it was food poisoning or an actual virus) had brought me to my knees and I was violently ill. Twice. I'll spare you any further details; but I spent the vast majority of the following day flat on my back, sweating, sleeping, and feeling like I was dying. I was completely void of energy and entirely weak. Which, if have ever met me, you would know how much it takes for me to even sit for long periods of time.

So, in short, I was once again reminded of an irrefutable fact: I'm mortal.

Pair this with the health scare I had last year and the return of the spontaneous migraines and that means the little yellow light on my health's dashboard is starting to light up. And, believe it or not, I do actually listen to the cues my body gives me when something is up. I may not react in a timely fashion, but I do know when something starts to go wrong. For the most part, anyway.

Here's where the good news comes in: I'm going to be doing something about this. Many things, actually. The first is that I'm finally going to get back into my water regiment. Three liters a day is the goal. Second (and this will surprise more than a few of you) is that I'm going to start resting when I can. Letting my body and mind repair itself while I do nothing. It's going to be tough; but it's more than necessary. On the flip side, I'm also going to get back into biking and hiking. Soak up all the clean air in the woods and let the serenity of my environment envelope me. I may even get back into swimming (if I can find a pool).

And...I'm going to start going to the doctors. For check ups and maybe even blood work. Going to start taking my vitamins and medicine. I'm going to start treating my body like I'm only going to live once; and I need it to last as long as it can. I'm going to start taking care of myself and also letting others take care of me. As hard as that's going to be. I am nothing, if not stubborn...

I'm not old, by any means, but if I don't start taking care of myself, I never will be. And that is not a fate I chose to accept.